Walking Timmy on a peaceful, breezy day
wind warm and therefore, kind
he was on his walk-of-a-thousand-pees
I was on the walk
in search of finding, me.

Thoughts all over the place
on the edge of
trying to deep breathe
stop the heart from racing
tasting salt on my tongue
and loosing the inner fight
as years of suppressed chaos
began to rise.

Let go, let go, let go.

I ran the whole gamut of emotions
from helplessness and frustration
to trials and tribulations
that had yet to come
the anger, all consuming rage
at the root of it all
the fear I’d learned to live on
and nothing else to survive.

A dark mood overwhelmed
which doesn’t usually happen
when I’m with Mother Nature.
I watched Tim enjoying himself
looked at the dark clouds
and knew they suited my mood
but suddenly, an inner voice told
me to turn and look again.

Standing perfectly still
with the sun behind me
the bottom of the clouds almost black
so dark and gloomy
but a little higher they switched
to dark grey, higher still they
turned light grey until eventually
the tops were the purest white
of white I’ve ever seen with a
hint of silver behind.


I knew right then it was a sign.

A message for me to absorb
that that which I am seeking
is in me and, has been all along
but I’d been looking in all
the wrong places.

At that moment in time
I felt the true ‘oneness’ everyone speaks of
as if I were being held
in someone’s loving embrace
and was being assured
I’m never alone.

I smiled, spoke out aloud
not caring if anyone was there
saw or, thought me crazy
thanked the powers that be
in the universe
and smiled
for those blessings that
are still mine.


© Daydreamertoo              *All rights reserved

This was the beach walk we were on when this happened about 18 months after my partner had died.  I was going through all sorts of inner turmoil. Mind in chaos of anger, rage, abandonment, all sorts of feelings because, for nearly three long years (for various reasons too lengthy to go into) I had lived on no other emotion but fear and had truly forgotten how to feel anything other than the need of survival. It took such a long, long time to re-learn what it was to feel happy, to be at peace within and, maybe another three years of deep soul-searching to discover we have most of the answers we’re seeking within us all along but, we just don’t tend to have time or, maybe feel the need to sit still for long enough to find them.

Life is the gift…Learning to love without condition, is the lesson.

Eventually, I learned that I was much more deeply spiritual than I had ever even realised, but not until I was forced to look for those elusive answers to once again find my balance/centering/peace, deep within.

Shared with dVersePoets with Victoria C Slotto Meeting the Bar: Where in the World am I?
Poets United #102 Labyrinth

Author: Daydreamer

I live on a beautiful island in Atlantic Canada.

24 thoughts on “Signs”

  1. Bren, tears…this is such a beautiful poem…the genuine you-ness of this is so very much a gift.

    I can’t thank you enough for sharing this with us.

    Thank you.

  2. Smiles came with the walk-of-a-thousand-pees and the heartbreaking loss all tied up in your wonderful poetry. Wow!

  3. Wonderfully put into words … I can tell you lived every word, Bren … thanks for sharing this with us … Love, cat.

  4. I am so glad you shared this with us! It is profound, moving and so full of sentiment and charm! I love how you saw the sign that moved you forward! I know you were meant to be there in that moment! Beautiful!
    Thank you Bren for sharing you! 😀

  5. Thank you for giving us the background to this poem. Such an emotive and interesting write. You are lucky to have found peace within after all the years of struggle. Everyone says that is the answer. I wish I could convince myself to listen to everyone:)

  6. Sometimes it takes a while to learn lessons. It sounds like you can pinpoint an exact time where things changed for you! So glad that you shared this soulful write, Bren.

  7. At first I thought Timmy was a child, and then realized as the narrator got more and more taken with an inner landscape that it had to be a 4-footed friend who would feel joy and release as a playful cue, and love to hear that in the voice. The silver lining became manifest to prove itself to the narrator. Good stuff.

  8. This is beautiful. Thank you for sharing such a personal and emotional moment. I’m so glad you found your answers within. I think we’re all spiritual, just have to acknowledge it. Thanks again.

  9. Oh this is a soulful write, Bren. I loved every word, and especially the notes after……….I so know the realizations you are speaking of……and I loved the walk-of-a-thousand-pees – what is that about male dogs? Timmi doesnt look big enough to store that much pee:)

  10. Thank you for sharing this spiritual journey–the images are so vivid I felt I was there.

  11. Daydreamertoo,

    A very powerful personal journey has been retold through your words. Sad of course, but with a very hopeful realisation and conclusion, with a way forward. Best Wishes for the future.


  12. Dramatic revelation in a wonderful setting.
    Not something you will forget in a hurry.
    Liked the way your pictures complemented the words.

  13. Wow! I shared that epiphany…such wonderful details. I liked how you shared this walk to allow us to be a part of so many emotions. And “the walk-of-a-thousand-pees” tickled me.

  14. Your spiritual awakening gave me chills. Thanks so much for sharing that piece of you with us. Couldn’t help but laugh at- he was on his walk-of-a-thousand-pees… hehe.

  15. love the look back and the realization that you were looking in the wrong places all along…you put us throught he emotions in this one and i was right there….i love nature as well and it is often i find it lifts my spirits more than dampens them…

  16. very cool on the sign with the clouds…so much grace in this… the emotions are tight and can be felt bren..not an easy way to go but glad that there was a turn and glimpse of hope

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