Drifting into the deep
words float in puddles
spinning round and round
then, drip one by one
through fluttering eyelids.
Something’s going on
(I scream)
but, no-one hears the cries.
Drowning now in you as you
haunt me with those eyes in the
darkness of my dreams.
Running now
always running
(Sometimes wish I had a gun)
Trying to escape before you
make a grab for me.
Yes, you know it’s you
who haunts me.
Taunts me
(as you used to sneak into
my room)
Now, you creep into my thoughts
when I let slip my guard
falling victim to your nightly
frights again.
Heart is in my throat now
and I’m choking on the fear as
those shadow-hands reach out from
the cold and dead
to touch my living flesh.
If this is a dream then wake me
for, I am in hell and the devil is
escaping through my tears.
I’ve lived with you for years.
Suddenly, you disappear
but, I know where you are.
I saw someone toss you back into
the earth, scattered the ashes
of your demon birth.
So,
go back and walk among the
living dead because I am
so much stronger than you
ever knew.
My light outshone your
wicked deeds.
I’m alive and, when I wake
I’ll remember that it was
I who heaved a silent sigh as I
watched you go.
~*~
© Daydreamertoo *All rights reserved
For far too many reasons that I can’t go into without writing a novel, suffice to say, I used to have these dreadful recurring night frights for years, where I would wake up shouting, sobbing real tears and, even though once awake, I couldn’t break free of the fear from those dreadful night terrors. Until through deep soul searching of many ‘whys’ and of being able to forgive the unforgivable, I found my own light and then I knew, through love, I’d always been so much stronger than I ever knew I was.
No child should ever suffer any type of abuse at the hands of any adult, parents or not. Not in any way and, not for any reason.
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